final major project sketch book colour me free 2023

I arrive at College feeling not so good. Continuing thoughts about making a book. I decide to paint. 

While painting I am finding myself in a flow state, listening to Ross from friends and Fred Again. This music is electronic dance music. Music that has me move I love to dance it takes me out of my head and out to the stars.

I find myself engrossed with the paint the ink the paper the brush as I have my headphones on it's clear that this is where I need to be once in flow I continue painting and inking the paper.

This process has me think about a process I have done before, responding to the sound response to painting the communication meditation through looping and painting.

I am not sure what I am wanting to achieve sometimes, the answers are not present as yet. I am simply painting and losing myself in this and music.

The headphones I wear are noise-cancelling they make me feel hugged in my own world. I wish to explore alone I am not desiring to connect to people around me. I am not feeling myself, although the colours expressed appear to be uplifting. These feel like expressions of stuck. And a reach for hope while going in circles with myself. Venturing through painting with fewer sounds around me enables me to really focus in on this moment with the colours that stroke my internal feeling. 

 From the paints I painted, I began to think of the title colour me free. I began to think about the exhibition I attended at The New Art Exchange titled 'Journey Of The Mind' This was an exhibition that I did not first feel I liked. The reason was that it felt like work 

a process of more work having to read more than the regular exhibition. I with pieces of text on the walls I began to fall into place within the space the work was demanding my attention in a way that called upon the human to be still. This had me think of meditation slowing down the human rushing and not taking a moment.  What if I could create something that could hold you in a moment.  With the use of colour fabric and text. The nature of a book is centric, you need to focus to inhale what is in it the turning of the pages. A title of a book can pull you in also. I have many books at home although I struggle to have things stick with me. But books have a homely feel so this appeals.